can you hear me now?

t mobile is really tickin me off lately

first the issue with the kids phones and the insurance … i got nowhere on that … i’m dropped … end of story … they won’t tell me why and they won’t cover the phones

now … i need a new phone … ok, ok … i WANT a new phone … my blackberry has been crappin out lately in the memory area … it has always had issues with too many third pary apps … you can’t have alot of them on your phone and actually use them because they suck memory … if you don’t have any memory … you don’t get text message or emails … nice … i’ve stipped pretty much everything i can off my phone and i’m still having memory issues … time for a new phone

i was thinking of getting an iphone … not too happy to change service but it was a thought because i was online paying my bill and clicked the little upgrade button and all of my upgrades were hella expensive … at at&t online they are listing iphones at $99

yesterday i called tmo to see when my contract was up and when i could upgrade … and that’s when the shit hit the fan … my contract was up in oct 09 and i’m not eligible to upgrade because i chose to get one of the unlimited calling, text and data plans at the end of last year … are you shittin me??!!

what does this mean … if i want a new blackberry i have to pay $200+ up front and then i can put the rest on a payment plan of $20 a month

i’m in awe … i’ve been with tmo for 5 years and this is what i get … a new tmo customer can get a new bberry for $20 at costco and i get shit

now … i don’t expect anything for free … i understand that things cost money but come on already … if they worked on trying to keep their current customers they wouldn’t have to cheap out in order to get new customers … i’m annoyed and irritated and looking for another cell phone company because that is just shit ass service

miscellaneous ramblings

my last ground class was tonight … 2 clep tests and i’m finally done with my bachelors … woot woot!! can’t wait, better late than never

i’ve become an adam lambert fan … well maybe just one song

and a little bit of karma …

… ex asshat doesn’t understand why his kids don’t wanna spend time with him … well duh, ya keep ditching them to go to a fucking bar and yeah, they don’t wanna see you, ya dumbass … karma, karma, i love ya girl

elevator etiquette

the one thing that perterbs me about being in a high rise building … some people just have no elevator etiquette

i’m not hard to please there are just a few things that really make me bat shit crazy:

• let me the fuck off – there is nothing more annoying that people that stand in the way when i am trying to get off the elevator … you can’t get on if you don’t let everyone else off … get out of my damn way!!
• 2nd floor, ladies lingerie – most everyone in this building knows that almost every floor is secured … in order to even push a button for a floor you have to swipe your badge … so don’t park your ass right in front of the button panel
• TMI – yes everyone chit chats in the elevator but don’t talk about how so and so and so and so go all up on each other at the bar last night … seriously … i don’t wanna hear it
• bodily odors – it should go without saying … DO NOT, i repeat, DO FUCKING NOT, let me smell your stank ass farts … pig … and along those lines … all you bitches that feel you have to wear the entire bottle of perfume … skip it please

according to this site there are a ton of other “rules” … i could care less about the rest, i think these are the most important

thankyoucomeagain

and then there’s this

this is the reason i hate politicians and politics

john edwards you are an ass … John Edwards admits he fathered child with mistress

not only did you cheat on your cancer ridden wife … then you deny to be the father of a child

i loathe politicians that try and come off like god fearing, do gooders when they are abusing drugs, cheating and doing all the things they are telling us we shouldn’t be doing … pricks!!

i think i’m getting political

i saw this article on cnn about how cindy mccain posed for the noh8 campaign that is for gay marriage

apparently she did this in support of her daughter meghan mccain who is a huge supporter of gay rights … she, meghan, states that she is very much republican and very much a supporter of gay rights

good on you meghan mccain!

i think it is great that she doesn’t subscribe to the label theory and does what she wants

i don’t say that i’m democrat or republican … i just want shit fixed

common sense things like the gov’t interfering in peoples lives should not be a fight

if i wanna put a rainbow sticker on my truck and marry a woman the only people i should worry about having an issue with it are my kids and my mother … and maybe my sister but i don’t think she would really care as long as i was happy

when healthcare is bankrupting america … it needs to be fixed

and yes … our military needs to come home … let’s find a better fuel than gasoline and let the middle east blow the fuck out of themselves if that’s what they want to do

this is me … feeling good

the whole “positive” new year thing seems to be working

eliminating, or mostly eliminating, those people that injected too much negativity into my life has seemed to help me (except for the one that is leukemia and keeps showing back up)

i don’t feel stressed and pissy and angry all the time

yes there are ups and downs … things get to me but i get through it and i move on

there are times when i feel like i’m just about biting through my tongue … but rather than feed the negative it’s just easier to ignore and/or walk away

yes there are things that i still want … but as the saying goes … i can’t love anyone else until i love myself

go ahead … you know you wanna say it … aaaahhhh

um, mr president, congress … can you look at this too?

while washington is looking at medical insurance i would like them to look at ALL insurance

they are all corrupt

my recent experience, while not the end of the world, still pisses me off nonetheless … asurion …. more like a-shitty-on … the insurance company for t-mobile

i’ve filed a few claims with them … the kids both had water accidents with their phones and i had to pay a minimal deductable, like $50 maybe, and they got new phones pretty quick … when my blackberry got run over, i called and got a new one in 24 hours

i bought the kids new phones last spring … by summer the little man had already killed the slide on his phone and the screen wouldn’t work … well … in order to get a point across i did not file an insurance claim right away … today i tried to do it … tried

i went online, filled out the form and got a message saying i need to contact my provider because i wasn’t covered … what?? … i called t mobile … they said ashittyon canceled me on 12/8/09 and i would have to contact them … i called ashittyon and the customer service rep said i was indeed not covered but she couldn’t tell why, she put me on hold and spoke with the “advanced” customer care …. they still couldn’t tell me why i was canceled and that my claim should be valid so she was going to forward me to enrollment … again the rep on the phone could not tell me why i was not covered and could not approve the claim

this is where i wigged out …

“you canceled me but you don’t know why and you won’t approve a claim because i’m not covered, because you canceled me and don’t know why”

“yes ma’am”

“well that’s just fucking great!!”

“i’m sorry ma’am”

“i don’t wanna here your damn sorry, i wanna hear your damn supervisor”

“just a moment ma’am”

so she transferred me into michelle robinson’s voicemail … i left her a message … and i’ve been trying to let it go but i’m fucking pissed … i think it’s time for call #2 … cause now i wanna know what the fuck they are doing with the money i’m sending them … i want my $10 back …. fuckers!!

fun at the bank

yesterday upon arriving home i found a note on my door

blah, blah, blah … “NSF” … blah, blah, blah … “rent check” … blah, blah, blah … “cashiers check or money order”

well fuck me!! i’ve been being good because i knew it would be tight cause i didn’t get paid for christmas … long story … i get it this week

last night i looked and i don’t even see the check hitting my account … wtf? … but i can request a picture of said check … hhhmmmm … if a check hits your account and is returned NSF you usually see it post and then get reversed

today i walked over to the bank to get a cashier’s check so i can drop it off this afternoon, i used the next check in my checkbook … and the teller says “this check has a stop payment on it” …. confused doggie head turned sideways … “what?” … then he looks and says checks from 1120 through 1149 have stop payments on them

OOOOHHHHHH … when i ordered new checks the first batch never made it … i called into the phone bank, they placed stop payments on them and then transferred me to Deluxe to get them reordered … Deluxe hadn’t gotten them back, or so they said, so they reordered them for me … i thought all was well … i got my checks a few days later … except … there was a gap in the check ranges … i don’t remember exactly what they are at the moment but there were 4 books of checks, 2 consecutively numbered then a gap of like 30, then the next 2 consecutively numbered

as i’m standing at the teller line i realize … my rent check didn’t get returned due to NSF it was returned due to stop payment, that’s why i didn’t see it hit my account, because stop payment checks don’t hit your account

my thoughts … deluxe did get the checks back and just stuck them in the same package and sent them back to me … fuckers

ggggaaaaahhhhh …. so hopefully today when i go to drop off my check at the management office and show them the printout i got from the bank they won’t give me a raft of shit and i won’t have to get cashiers checks for all my rent going forward

on my way back to work from the bank … i stopped at starbucks to get some iced tea …

… the decadent chocolate cupcake i also got … made everything all better … all is well in the world!!

the power of four

short and sweet, steal at will

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four places I go regularly: work, home, school, into a coma when i finally get to sleep

four favorite smells: coffee, ocean, freshly cleaned sheets, vanilla anything

four people I think will respond: no clue

four TV shows I watch: intervention, hoarders, true blood, and anything with dr drew

sex does not = love

this should be a known … right?

you’d be surprised, i’m surprised

sexual intimacy is such a huge part of a relationship and for some it’s “THEEEEE” relationship

focusing on the physical rather than the psychological isn’t always (ever) the way to go … i don’t think

i will be the first to admit that i’ve done it … stayed in a relationship because the sex was incredible … and the relationship was … well … what relationship

my fresh start into a year of positive things has me thinking a little more clearly and i’m still not sure where it all came from … why the need to eliminate all the negative? … dunno … but we usually do the things we need to survive without a reason that is clear to us at the time

i’m still talking to my long distance lover … things are still complicated … he “misses” me … but what does he miss … me? … or the intimacy that is lacking in his current …. situation … this is all to be contintued and i’m sure it will be a long post when the time comes to have that convo … yes i know i’m procrastinating, shut it

then there is my little fireboy … or i guess you could also call him EMT boy … or sheriff’s officer boy … anyway … he says he loves me … ok … at one point he said he wanted to marry me … to which i ran away as fast as i could … when i stopped running i realized he TOLD me he wanted to marry me, he didn’t ask … i digress … anyway … he STILL keeps telling me he loves me and misses me and wants to see me and then it evolves into … well you know the rest … and he is still at arms distance from me … several arms

good sex does not mean you love someone … it’s just good sex

there is a certain intimacy level among those that are in a relationship and i think people mistake sex for love when all they really want is human contact on a more intimate level

we are all, most of us anyway, a little more touchy feely with one another when we are in a relationship

to lay in bed with someone and cuddle is great … how do you get that if you are not in a relationship? … 1-800-976-BABE?? … even then cuddling is extra

how do you ensure it continues if you do get it to happen? … tell that person you love them because more than likely they are staying with you for the same hollow reasons you are staying with them

so really, it’s the fear of being alone that causes us to profess our love for another when there really isn’t anything good in the relationship other than sex … and sometimes that’s not even that great

do i want to be in love, of course, do i want and crave human contact, absolutely … everyone does

BUT do i want to be in a relationship that claims LOVE when all it really is … is a bad habit

or even worse … do i want to waste the energy on someone that is only out for one thing

i’m done with the bad habits … and if that means i have to shave my head and become a buddist monk … i guess that’s what i’ll have to do …

… will you all come visit me at the airport while i’m singing hari krishna??